Over the last few weeks the biggest thing I’ve been struggling with is myself. When I was younger and preparing for exams, I’d always give the impression I was super chill when I got good results but the reality was that I’d be mind-mapping the hell out of my literature ‘themes’ and obsessively drawing up calendars with revision slots I’d cross off with colour coded highlighters. I was fun like that.
Don’t get me wrong, I still make a ‘to do’ list about three times a day (and cross off the things I’ve already done because it makes me feel alive), but when it comes to properly planning out my own shoots (client work aside) making sure I’m sketching out each shot, having a clear purpose why I’m taking that one in particular and what I want from it, well I know I’ve not been giving myself enough time.
Mainly because along with keeping my bra on after 8pm and the moment that guy brings out ‘the guitar’ at parties, weekly meal plans are my idea of hell. At the moment I don’t really know which morning I’m going to be in my own house and bulk buying for one is just a waste. To be honest, a lot of the time I’m just really hungry and just want to eat so I’ve been rushing things and ending up with shots that I know aren’t my best.
Today I decided I needed to stop rushing, stop semi-winging it and take my time. I’ve been reading a lot of Lauren Keim’s blog about her journey shooting in film recently, and while her photography is AMAZING and her writing so great, it’s her dedication to the process of slowing down and taking the time to get her shots that really stuck with me. So despite the fact I’m not shooting on film, that’s what I decided to do…